Here goes nothing y'all. I need to complain, I promise
that I will try my utmost to not do this often. This has just been slowly getting
to me and I feel like if I don't say something I might just boil over.
Not to mention it's pretty crappy weather
and it just makes it easier to succumb to bad moods.
Not to mention it's pretty crappy weather
and it just makes it easier to succumb to bad moods.
I realized something recently, more specifically this past weekend. On Saturday I was in
a cab on my way to Grand Central, when the cabbie asked me what I did for
a living. Immediately my first thought was to make something up. Something that sounded
cool and as if I was doing something "worthwhile". I didn't want that pitying look
that seems to come every time I tell the truth or the ever present
condescending statement "oh.... that's nice".
condescending statement "oh.... that's nice".
As if they had really high hopes for me and I let them down with my admission.
It's absurd.
It's absurd.
I was astonished and ashamed of myself. I have no reason to be ashamed. I am a receptionist / administrative assistant. That is nothing for me to feel bad about. How dare I let anyone make me feel
less than because they somehow believe my current job is "simple" or makes me
"simple". Who are they to judge me and what I do?
Do I have the ability to do something more "difficult", even more time consuming? Yeah, sure I do. Here's the thing... I love my job. I work with an absolutely amazing group of people.
It's astonishing really because each person in the office is smart, kind and truly funny. I actually enjoy when I get into the office. Yes, I answer phones, do lots of spreadsheets, take messages and do jobs that would generally be considered monotonous, but so what?
I mean, I have a job. I get paid a salary and work with people I enjoy.
How many people can say that? Not many, sadly. I am thankful. So frigging thankful.
For the opportunity, for having the chance to meet these people, to
be able to be closer to some of my friends.
I hate that I ever let anyone make me think there was something wrong with what I do.
That ends now... Right? I think that's a good plan.
(My super cool desk)
Cool blog, nice content. In terms of what you talked about in this post, I've sometimes found myself in a similar place.
ReplyDeleteWhen somebody asks you what you do, you always want to say something cool.
You say you have the ability to do something more difficult/time consuming, but then you defend your current job and it's almost like you're trying to convince yourself it's the right thing for you.
It's cool to get paid a salary and work with people you enjoy, but in the end, there's more to life than that. Unless you think that this job really is your full potential, which I doubt.
If you truly love what you do, other people's opinions wouldn't matter. You seem like a good writer and a smart person, you can go much further than the confines of a cubicle. Don't hold yourself back. It's good to be thankful, but don't limit yourself.
I currently work at a job I'm not particularly ecstatic about. I don't plan to stick around long. As of now, I'm working towards more entrepreneurial pursuits because that's the only way I know I can achieve my full potential. And of course, so I can look really cool when NYC cabbies ask me what I do :p
Thank you! I know, and this job isn't about loving what I do. This job is about starting somewhere until I figure out what that passion in my life turns out to be. I will stay with this job as long as I am supposed to and the rest will come when it is time, at least I think so!
DeleteAnd but of course, you have to look good in front of those New York Cabbies!! :)